I used to  think that my issue with weight was the reason I always seemed so unhappy. I don't think that my weight is the problem; I feel like I'm missing something from my life. 

So to fill that void, I turn to food. My only comfort, the only thing on this earth that does not or will not judge me. Food is my comfort, always has been and I'm sure always will be. 

My daughter was sick and I was stressed. What do I do? I eat. My boyfriend said something I didn't like and my feeling were hurt. What do I do? I eat.

How do I turn exercise into my comfort instead of food? I said before I feel much better when I am exercising regularly. I seem happier; I even appear happier. 

Lately, I have so short with the people that mean the most to me in my life. I really really need to stop putting myself on the back burner to concentrate on me. 

I know I will feel better and my family will be happier. I just need to find the place within me to make exercise my comfort.

I'm not sure how many of the people who read these blogs are overweight or have ever struggled with their weight. 

Also, I'm not sure how many of you watch "The Biggest Loser." I have never watched this television program until this season. If you are watching this season, I compare myself as a mixture between Shay and Amanda. I'm scared like Shay when it comes to food and the choices I have to make when it comes to eating food. I also see a lot of me in Amanda, excuses and whining. 
 

Losing weight has to be for you. You have to be ready to put yourself first and commit every choice you make to your diet and exercise plan. I've lost more than 20 pounds. That's not great when you are in a fitness challenge, but it's a heck of a lot better than gaining 20 pounds. 
 

I've been exercising at home and also going to the gym when I get a chance. 
 

If you are reading this and again saying to yourself that I'm lazy and full of excuses, then I am sorry you feel that way. Put yourself in my shoes for a day and you let me know how easy it is. With that said, I'm looking forward to the next weigh-in. 

My oldest and dearest friend is getting married next October. This past Friday, I had to go and try on a dress for the wedding. I am probably the largest girl in the wedding party. 

Does this bother me? Yes, of course. I was not as bothered, though, when they literally stuffed me into a size 12 dress. 
 

When I say stuffed, I looked like a hot dog that was overcooked and the casing was about to explode. But it was a size 12 and I had it on. I even have a picture to prove it. 
 

I told the other girls in the wedding party that I'm not going to be the "fat" bridesmaid in this wedding. I am looking forward to continuing my weight-loss journey in the hopes that I will have reached my goal of 165 pounds by then or at least be real damn close. 
 

I always knew that losing weight was not going to be a walk in the park, so to speak, but I never dreamed it would be this difficult for me. 
 

I know what I must do to achieve the goals I have set for myself. I just need to really put myself first for once and stop being so lazy at times. I know that everyone has their days when they would rather lay around and do nothing. Laziness is not an option anymore and I need to finally stick with that. Just like before, thanks again for all your encouragement and support.

I was told the other day that my articles and blogs are starting to get boring. 

I find that to be true also. I'm not losing an outrageous amount of weight, so I'm starting to believe that people really don't wanna read about how I struggle to lose weight. 
 

My exercise routines and my eating habits are pretty such the same as they have been. Nothing too exciting there. I am asking you, the readers for some suggestions, comments, anything you would like to know, or anything you would like to tell me. I would like to, in these last few months, capture your attention once more.